HUMILIATED

I got to speak to Miss Lana once again. I came home after work and was debating with myself whether I should be rational and responsible and stay away from giving in into addiction or just let it go and speak to Lady Lana again. I fought with myself for about half an hour, giving myself every excuse NOT to do it, not to pick up that phone, not to listen to Her voice, to just get on with my life

Mistress, I had a nightmare last night. I was thinking what I did wrong to deserve it. I hope you forgive me Mistress if you are mad at me. I don’t know. I woke up last night from a dream. You were laughing at me. You locked me up, Mistress, and then you told me I couldn’t get out. You locked me up and said I had to pay. I didn’t have any money, but I wanted to get out, as I couldn’t think about

Some circumstances prevented me from posting the last days of the series live. One reason but not the main reason is that I felt very embarrassed about the things I had to do and some things I wasn't able to do. So it was a bit of a double embarrasment. To please Miss Lana a detailed summary will follow. The series was pure work for me. I had to push myself more than one time to continue. And now that I went through it I am 100% sure nobody can do the last 5 days while he is not in his holidays. I was smelling awfully and everybody who tries will probably get fired from the job. So I had free time a couple of days and after my first fail I wanted to try again to accomplish Her tasks.

After Day 5 I wore my cum filled boxer shorts and the next step was to put a thong over them. Unfortunately I wasn't able to get a pink one as She ordered. But I hope the very feminine style of the one I picked will also satisfy Her. They felt tight and not very comfortable. When Miss Lana said I would be still turned on by everything, She was right for the moment. Even the next degrading task to just "sit down" when I have to pee was turning me on. But soon enough I would find out it was not half as funny and horny as it sounded. The "no touching" rule didn't make anything easier, too.

As everybody can see in the picture I wore thick underwear. Which is usually for the winter months. The problem about was they were soaking fluids very well and they saved those for a long time. After day 6 I was always wet down there. And after the second time I had to pee in them I was smelling as hell. This means with Day 7 I only left my house for important things like buying food. As I wrote above I doubt anybody could do it without having some free days.


I felt so honored to see Miss Lana wearing the corset I bought for Her. It was fitting wonderful and to get those deteailed masturbation instructions from Her was pure pleasure. I felt so weak and small while slapping and stroking my cock. And I also liked the anal part. I was never into it, but after the series I probably felt slutty enough to like everything naughty.

Until then everything went lucky and I was able to follow Miss Lana's commands. On Day 8 I felt so pathetic and was disgusted by myself. It was hard to look in the mirror after I woke up. This made me adore Miss Lana even more. When She ordered me to put my filthy panties in my mouth I had to choke and almost puked. I looked up to Her and only seconds of Her words and Her presence were enough to make me forget how disgusting it was and I was turned on again.

Day 9 was the Day when I failed again. Maybe it is because I am still not turned on by financial humiliation. The idea was brilliant and maybe a little devil deep in my soul wishes I would have it done with a smile.

Day 10 was the last day and I felt kinda relieved. The reward from Miss Lana was something I never expected. I am not sure if I ever will be ready for it. But what left was that I never felt so pathetic in my life and it's still an embarrasment to write about public. There is still some self-confidence in my daily life but it's totally lost when I look up to Miss Lana, after this series.

Thank You Mistress.

Today was my first introduction with Lady Lana. I have been following Her for almost two months now and finally braved myself to speak to Her on the phone personally. I’ve watched a few of Her videos and couldn’t stop since then. I’ve bought videos online before, more for my self-gratification than as a search to serve someone. Thus, my journey has started with a simple attempt of self

After I begged pathetically for weeks, Lady Lana has allowed me to post on this blog. She has given me the power to exhault her. To tell others how hauntingly and inescapingly attractive she is, how precisely she uses her words and beauty to make me feel the greatest joy I've ever felt. Mistress, you are a vision of loveliness. I am your man whore. I dream of you, smoldering in a black dress,