LL BLOG

The strapon slut has put himself to a good use. He gets to get away with giving me the most used present of all, the hitachi magic wand. I know you all would be jealous, but who knew that this thing works so well! Must have been the best $47 spent, sucks to be you if you had to spend 20 times more than that to please me. I'm impressed. I never thought I would use it so much and so often, but omfg! I think I'm beginning to understand all you chronic masturbators. I consider myself a girl with a quite decent but not out of the boundaries sexual appetite. The hitachi is getting in the way of doing things now. It really really is! I have it plugged at all times next to my bed, it's quite convenient. I don't need to worry about batteries, I don't need to put it back into closet, it's always there. Not to mention it's great for my back too! ha. I still prefer good old deep tissue massage by a hot guy though; can't replace that, but, for other things, the wand is quite the competition. At one point it has crossed my mind if I will get electrocuted if it gets too wet. I heard that electricity and moisture don't mix well, but, I do keep a towel around, so fingers crossed, I'll be safe. I also thought of making a quick video using it, but, you'd be blessed if it lasted over 2 minutes. Teasing... you fucking wish. Was a nice thought there in your head for a second, eh? Bad, bad boy. So how do you get a chance to excite me? You got it right, the more you spend, the closer you get to the hitachi effect. I suggest you get right to it. Go on and  Spoil Me.

Hypnotic Inductions Page

Read Up as this one is kind of important. I have been working on a number of hypno files, and, meanwhile I like things to be done the right way, I also like to come up with new ways of doing them, not to mention most of innovations are due to a) laziness b)laziness.
I am not claiming 100% innovation here, simply because I don't know if it's been done before, but for my own convenience sake, the things are going to be this way from now on. Normally hypno files start with induction to get the subject deeper into trance state and then onto with suggestions, triggers and what not. During a one on one session it's easier to determine with induction works best on the subject, and it is in own interest to get the subject well and deep under my spell to plant my suggestions deeper inside the mind. With recordings I don't have such liberty, but I may only give it one attempt to get the subject deep, or maybe not. My own selfish convenience? Sometimes I just don't feel like going through the whole induction when I have an urge to record a particular idea that I have.
Thus... this are going to be this way from now on: I'm going to have an induction and deepener section separate from the rest of the files. If you have had enough training to go into trance quickly you perhaps may skip them, if not, it will also give you an idea of what works best for you, weather it is full body relaxation, the countdown, the confusion method, the staircase, the fractionation method etc. I am going to be adding more inductions to try out, some ranging from 20 minutes long that may be used on its own just simply to let go and relax to quick 5 minute ones to get into proper mental blank state for me.
How it's going to work: look for the file description that says yes or no for induction. If the file says no, then click on the "induction" link to chose one from the list. They are made the way that the transition is almost seamless from the induction onto the next file, no matter which one you chose (LL--> mad OCD genius). All of the files have background sound effects and music with at least 4-6 sound layers or more... just because I can. :) Of course, don't forget your headphones and a comfortable time and place to relax, listen and surrender.

I was going to quickly twit that I'm having weird dreams lately, but then, I thought I would tell a bit more about them, so fuck it, decided to blog it through.

I am quite accustomed to hearing from others that they seen me in their dream here or there, like Vlad's blog post about his "Mistress Dream". I seem to haunt them down even in their sleep. If I get my shit together eventually, I may gather up those twisted dreams into a couple of pages and post it separately as it would be too long for a blog post. Usually they rotate around fear, pain, money, adoration, more pain, more fear. I'm such a sweetheart, I know. Anyhow, that's some hypothetical plan in the future.


Now, onto my own dream world. For the most part it's really cool, my subconscious rocks. There are people who hardly remember their dreams, there are people who "don't" see dreams, there are those who are terrified of them and I guess there are people with cool dreams. I believe I've been through all of  these stages before, but most of all I have really cool dreams. They are super logical, I'd say more logical than my waking state. It doesn't mean they are not "weird". In one dream I was chasing rabbits and trying to put them in one place that when I woke up I was feeling tired from running, or I was having a lunch on a balcony in the middle of a very very green, almost emerald  forest discussing the proper existence of centaurs, which seemed to be running around and I was trying to make sense if they were the forgotten species or just a fragment of my imagination. The most annoying one are with my cat in it, last time I took her to dry cleaning, she wasn't happy about it, but hey, she doesn't like taking a bath.

There are some darker ones say, of being a vampire and pouring blood into wine glasses, but that could be the side effect of True Blood, which I've been *sigh* missing for past 3 weeks. Some of them are thrillers with car chases, roller coasters and bad guys. Most of the dreams though are almost full blown scripted movies, to the point when I wake up I feel like I have just watched a first class Hollywood flick, then I forget about it and when I go back to sleep I remember it very clearly again just right before falling asleep. I keep meaning to write them down, but usually tell some lucky soul first and then just never do.

The worst ones are of course that have to do with any kind of mental overload. If I go to sleep and I see photoshop screen, or any screen for that matter it's time to take a break; if I close my eyes and I have a nightmare about being outdrawn in poker, it's time to take a break.. and so on. The worst kind, is the urge dream. Say, I dream up ice cream... and I don't even particularly like ice cream, then when I wake up I have to have it. It's even worse when say, I dream up a mini cooper, but, I know that I will have it, with your efforts of course :) One thing I actually might do is continue with the "Bedtime Story 1"  and Bedtime Story 2 series which people seem to like and take them from my dreams, to yours.  I have been thinking of trying lucid dreaming but then, if I do I'll be #1 control freak in the world. I much rather leave my own dream world to itself and construct and implant my dreams and imagination into others minds, much, much more delicious and exciting.

Anyhow, I don't particularly believe in dreams, in meaning of dreams as in, if i see a tooth fairy I'm going to have an increase in income type of thing (I just made it up, don't take it for the truth). I don't keep a dream book to look up what an x and y thing mean; and for the most part I don't need to psycho analyze this.  I am quite content with myself. The ones that should be worries are those who see me in their dreams, apparently it's a much more worrisome.